May 1st, 2025

Hello everyone. Apologies for missing yesterday’s post, the days have been dragging and I think this is the worst point in recovery so far mentally. Luckily I am physically getting better and it’s only going to go up from this point on. I have my follow up appointment next week, and that means the start of real recovery; physical therapy, my 25 staples from surgery get taken out, and I get a fancier, nicer, cooler knee brace. All things to look forward to in my opinion

I think that with all of that progress will come better things, like me being more mobile and able to do more things that I love to do. It also means that there’s only 4 weeks left of recovery, which I counted and I will be back to normal by the beginning of June if everything goes to plan. Still, having the entire month of May to live through feels like a long process. Looking back to April, it felt like I lived 3 different lives in one month. That doesn’t really excite me for what May could bring, but I think I am in a point in life where all I want to focus on is getting better. Not only physically, but mentally. Becoming a better person through all this hardship is my ultimate goal after all.

I just wanted to get something in writing today. I am again feeling very unmotivated and just generally tired, so I think I’ll use most of my time to let myself feel this all out.